Friday, July 20, 2012

Why I never want to make new friends ever again...

It's just not worth the heartbreak. That's what I've decided. We're in too transient of a phase of life right now to bother making anymore friends. They'll just leave us. Or we'll leave them. Always one or the other.

So I'm out of the game. No more friends ever.

Same thing goes for Emma. I can't stand to see her lose another friend. If she never makes any more friends, I'll never have to go through this gut-wrenching, tear-jerking conversation in the morning ever again:

Emma: "Play! Blythye!"
Mommy: "No. Blythe bye-bye. No more Blythe."
Emma: "Play? Blythe? Please? Please?"

Nope. That's one conversation I'll never be repeating. You can bet your bottom dollar on that.

Ok. But seriously. It's been way harder than I thought it would be to say goodbye to our friends this summer. Really, really awful. I'm really glad for them that they're all heading off to law school and dental school and... whatever else. But it's just not a lot of fun for us!

I totally thought I had this all under control. After all, Chris and I have already done this before, remember? We said goodbye to all of our best friends in Utah last year. And that was that. I didn't think I'd have to go through everything all over again here in VA. I just assumed the friends we made here would be sort of "in passing" friends. I really didn't expect any of them to leave so deep a mark in our lives as they most certainly have.


I'm not sure I even have a point that I'm making anymore. I had a really eloquent post in my head all planned for this. But I think I've cried all my words out, and there's not much else left to say...

Just that we're missing our friends... feeling a little lost without them.... realizing how good we've had it having them around for the past 12 months.

Thanks for everything guys. I can't imagine we'll ever have a year like this one again, and we're so grateful for your friendships and for the memories!


Brenda Epps said...

This breaks my heart Ash:( I have left and been left by so many friends in my lifetime also. The great news is that you will make great friends where ever you are and oh yeah, that you will always have your family! Love you!

Mackenzie said...

Great. My eyes JUST went back to their normal size. I am back to bawling again. I miss you like crazy and you are such an amazing person and friend. Thanks for all that you have done for us. You have helped us more than you know!

Cami Claire said...

I totally know what you mean! It is hard living here sometimes because all the friends I make will leave if they haven't already. But getting to know people has been totally worth it everytime. Glad you are still here. :) LOVE reading your blog!